When I was in high school one of my favorite comedians was Denis Leary who had a stand up called No Cure for Cancer. I owned the CD and played it over and over. There was a line in it that always cracked me up. It went something like this,
Happiness. I was driving down the road the other day and I was thinking about my level of happy. Looking back on 2010, I can say it’s been a good year full of the ups and downs of life. I competed in my first triathlon and half marathon, had knee surgery, added friends, subtracted friends, started and ended a relationship with Mr. Wrong, and found even deeper peace with God and myself. But what prompted my deep reflection on my personal happiness was my lack of it lately."Happiness comes in small doses folks. It's a cigarette, or a chocolate chip cookie or a five second orgasm. You come, you smoke the butt, you eat the cookie, and you go to sleep, wake up and go back to work the next morning, THAT'S IT! End of list!"
I had always been the girl who could find happiness anywhere. It was the little things in life that made it great. A good workout, a new song, a long bike ride. But somewhere along the way this year I lost the ability to find the happy. I’m not sure if I was looking for “larger” things to make me happy or if I had allowed others to drive my train but I had stopped finding joy in the little things of life.
As another year comes to an end, I am not going to spend too long reflecting on it. Sometimes I think I get too caught up in the past to really see what’s going on in front of me and there are several things that need to stay where they are- in the past. Instead I am going to plan the possibilities. A new year. A fresh start. A chance to seek out the little things that bring me happiness.
365 days of possibilities. Sign me up! I’m ready!
