Sympathy

So we are sitting at the concert last night and the band was getting ready to come out for their encore and I looked over at Kathryn and tried to think of what song they hadn't sung yet. I said to her, "Sympathy" and no sooner were the words out of my mouth, I heard the first few notes of the song. I love the Goo Goo Dolls. They have many powerful songs that touch me and have so many memories attached to them. From the amazing song Name to Iris to Black Balloon, I have laughed and cried through them all. But the song Sympathy holds a special place in my heart. My attachment to the song is a story that is too long for the blog but every time I hear that song, I'm that girl again. The insecure, doubtful, person who is dependent on someone else for my next breath. Always wanting what I don't need and never realizing when life is good.

As I stood there last night among some very amazing women, I refused to think about what is wrong in my world. I refused to ignore the good in my world. Life is good. I have no regrets and I have worked hard to overcome my fears and insecurities. I create my own happiness. Control my own destiny.

Last night was a good celebration of new friendships. A reminder that no matter how life twist and turns, God has a plan that's bigger then me. I'm along for the ride.

"Stranger than your sympathy
This is my apology
I'm killing myself from
the inside out
And all my fears have pushed you out

I wished for
things that I don't need
All I wanted
And what I chase won't set me free
All I wanted
And I get scared but I'm not crawling on my knees

Oh yeah everything's all wrong yeah
Everything's all wrong yeah
Where the hell did I think I was

Stranger than your sympathy
I take these things so I don't feel
I'm killing myself from the inside out
Now my head's been filled with doubt

It's hard to lead the life you
choose
All I wanted
When all your luck's run out on you
All I wanted
You can't see when all your dreams are coming true

Oh yeah it's easy
to forget yeah
You choke on the regrets yeah
Who the hell did I think I was

Stranger than your sympathy
All these thoughts you stole from me
I'm not sure where I belong
Nowhere's home and I'm all wrong

And I wasn't all the things
I tried to make believe I was
And I wouldn't be the one to kneel
Before the dreams I wanted
And all the talk and all the lies
Were all the empty things disguised as me
Yeah stranger than your
sympathy, stranger than your sympathy "